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Friday, September 24th, 2004
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How Could The One I Gave My Heart To, Break My Heart So Bad?
How Could The One Who Made Me Happy, Make Me Feel So Sad?
Wont Somebody Tell Me? So I Can Understand.
If You Love Me, How Could You Hurt Me Like That?
How Could The One I Gave My World To, Throw My World Away?
How Could The One Who Said I Love You, Say The Things You Say?
How Could The One I Was So True Too, Just Tell Me Lies?
How Could The One I Gave My Heart To, Break This Heart Of Mine?
Tell Me........
How Could You Be So Cold To Me? When I Gave You Everything.
All My Love, All I Had Inside.
How Could you Just Walk Out The Door?
How Could You Not Love Me Anymore?
I Thought We Had Forever.
I Cant Understand.
How Could The One I Shared My Dreams With, Take My Dreams From me?
How Could The Love That Brought Such Pleasure, Bring Such Misery?
Wont Somebody Tell Me? Somebody Tell Me Please.
If You Love Me, How Could You Do That To Me?
Tell Me........
How Could you Just Walk Out The Door?
How Could You Not Love Me Anymore?
I Thought We Had Forever.
I Cant Understand.
*How Could The One I Gave My Heart To, Break My Heart So Bad?
How Could The One Who Made Me Happy, Make Me Feel So Sad?
Wont Somebody Tell Me? So I Can Understand.
If You Love Me, How Could You Hurt Me Like That?*
How Could The One I Gave My World To, Throw My World Away?
How Could The One Who Said I Love You, Say The Things You Say?
How Could The One I Was So True Too Just Tell Me Lies?
*How Could The One I Gave My Heart To.....
How Could The One I Gave My Heart To....
How Could The One I Gave My Heart To Break This Heart of Mine?
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4 glasses : Got Milk?
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here's an update on my puppy Riley (an american pitbull terrier)
  
 
while he was sleeping...
 
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8 glasses : Got Milk?
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Thursday, June 10th, 2004
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I wanna introduce everyone to my new puppy Riley. He's the same breed as my previous dog Conan, an american pitbull terrier. I still misses Conan and think about him often. Riley reminds me of Conan at times. I got him at the animal shelter. Him and his two brothers were abandoned at the age of 8weeks.
picture of him when he was at the shelter.
picture of him now 
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11 glasses : Got Milk?
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Sorry for being on the M.I.A.
Nothing much has been going on except the past three weeks. My dog was put to sleep. He was getting weaker and skinnier. We didn't want to see him suffer. He had two different kind of cancer, prostate and liver. He's such a good dog and smart too. Even though he was weak, if you asked him if he wants to go out for a walk. He'll wag his tail. He still managed to greet our visitors one last time. The night before I went to Dominican Republic, I did my usual good night to him and I told him to wait for me when I get back. I knew he had an appointment with his doctor but two days after I arrived at Dominican Republic. My mom called me up and told me that we had to put him to sleep and sorry that he couldn't wait for you. His doctor said that he had four litres of water in his tummy and if he drains it. It'll come back again in two days. He wasn't eating much so basically he was starving to death. He also mentioned that my dog was at the very end stage of his liver cancer.
When I came back, the house was so empty and quiet. I was waiting for his bark when I step foot at my front door. I was waiting for him to greet me and wag his tail non-stop but nothing. When I'm alone at home, I have this urge to call his name to come to me but I knew he won't be coming this time. We got him cremated and his urn is with us next to his picture on the shelf. My mom didn't want to bury him because she said that he's a house dog. He should not be buried outside but kept inside the house with us.
Other than my dog, my trip to Dominican Republic was good. Although it wasn't my ideal place to go in the first place but we were running out of time. We stayed at Canoa Coral by Hilton in La Romana, Dominican Republic. I went with my babe for the first time. It was good because his friends wasn't there and all his attention was on me. hehe. I got a hell of a good tan. I don't really tan 'cause I don't like how I look. This time I use tanning oil and I like how it turned out. We didn't do much of the day trip because everytime we tried to go book it. Our representative was either had a day off or we just missed her. At least we saved our money. As soon as we arrived in Toronto, I wasn't feeling good. Two hours later after I got home. I had a fever,a bad stomach ache and sorry to say this diareahhea. My stomach ache lasted for five days. I had a bacteria infection. I know this because I made an appointment to see my doctor and got tested.
It hasn't been a good week after my fever/tummy ache because I had an allergic reaction after I ate haddock. Which by the way I blew up like a blowfish with bumps on my face. Then after the allerigic reaction, which it's now. I have a cough, sore throat and cold. Poor me! haha I know!
I'm getting by without my doggy and thinking of getting another one. I've always wanted/ and welcome more animals in my house even when he was still alive. Who knows, I might get one but not right now.
R.I.P
Conan, you will be missed.
IF IT SHOULD BE
IF IT SHOULD BE THAT I GROW WEAK
AND PAIN SHOULD KEEP ME FROM MY SLEEP,
THEN YOU MUST DO WHAT MUST BE DONE
FOR THIS LAST BATTLE CANNOT BE WON.
YOU WILL BE SAD, I UNDERSTAND,
DON'T LET GRIEF THEN STAY YOUR HAND.
FOR THIS DAY MORE THAN ALL THE REST,
YOUR LOVE FOR ME MUST STAND THE TEST.
WE'VE HAD SO MANY HAPPY YEARS,
WHAT IS TO COME CAN HOLD NO FEARS,
YOU'D NOT WANT ME TO SUFFER SO,
THE TIME HAS COME TO LET ME GO.
TAKE ME WHERE MY NEED THEY'LL TEND,
AND PLEASE STAY WITH ME UNTIL THE END.
HOLD ME FIRM AND SPEAK TO ME.
UNTIL MY EYES NO LONGER SEE.
I KNOW IN TIME THAT YOU WILL SEE,
THE KINDNESS THAT YOU DID FOR ME.
ALTHOUGH MY TAIL ITS LAST HAS WAVED,
FROM PAIN AND SUFFERING I'VE BEEN SAVED.
PLEASE DO NOT GRIEVE IT MUST BE YOU,
WHO HAS THIS PAINFUL THING TO DO,
WE'VE BEEN SO CLOSE, WE TWO, THESE YEARS
DON'T LET YOUR HEART HOLD BACK ITS TEARS.
FOR I AM NOW IN A BETTER PLACE,
AND WILL BE WAITING TO SEE YOUR HAPPY FACE.
SO WHEN YOU CROSS THAT FINAL BRIDGE,
LOOK FOR ME ....
I'LL BE STANDING... NEXT TO THE FRIDGE.
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When Tomorrow Starts Without Me
When tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see;
The sun will rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,
I know how much you loved me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me
I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand
That an angel came and called my name
And petted me with her hand.
She said my place was ready,
In Heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.
But, as I turned to heel away,
A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life I never thought
That I would have to die.
I had so much to live for,
So many sits and downs to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.
I thought about our lives together,
I know you must be sad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.
Remember when I'd nudge your hand,
And poke you with my nose?
The ball I would gladly chase,
The bad guy I'd "bark and hold"
If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for awhile,
I'd wag my tail and kiss you,
Just so I could see you smile.
But then I fully realized,
That this could never be
For emptiness and memories
Will take the place of me.
And when I thought of treats and toys
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you and when I did,
My dog-heart filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through Heaven's gate;
And felt so much at home;
As God looked down and smiled at me,
From His beautiful throne.
He said,"This is eternity",
And now we welcome you,
Today your life on earth is past,
But here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last;
For you see, each day's the same,
There's no longing for the past.
Now you have been so faithful
So trusting, loyal and true;
Though there were times you did things,
You knew you shouldn't do
But good dogs are forgiven,
And now at last you're free;
So won't you sit here by My side,
And wait right here with me?"
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right there, in your heart.
Author unknown
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My mother's email about Conan.
Our gentle giant has passed on to doggie heaven. He went gently and quietly, with nary a moan or whimper. Took only a minute and Conan was gone ... to rest peacefully forever.
As Chell said, Conan was a big dog with a big heart. He loved everyone and everyone returned his affection. We tugged at his ears and tail, he tugged at our hearts. Never mean-spirited, always enthusiastic and happy. We will miss his welcoming bark, heavy paws and waggy tail. The doggie with the biggest smile and hearty
'wave', all bark and no bite. The American pitbull born in Canada on Canada Day, 1994.
Conan's left us with many fond and happy memories. His legacy of generosity of spirit, unflagging devotion to family, boundless enthusiasm, and a non-judgmental, open-minded outlook serve as shining reminders for us to adopt a similar attitude in our struggle to make our world a better place. His spirit will live in our hearts forever.
my dog and his girlfriend (my neighbor's dog) Brandy.
  
( more Conan pictures )
( Dominican Republic pictures )
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10 glasses : Got Milk?
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Wednesday, December 31st, 2003
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Just wanted to say happy new year's everyone! Drive safe.
Well I'm off to dinner then a house party. Take care and see you in the year 2004.
MUAHZ!!
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10 glasses : Got Milk?
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Tuesday, December 23rd, 2003
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I got this from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92.1) 1ragincajun: 
I didn't think I was picky at all.
Before I forget, I would like to say Merry Christmas and have a happy new year! Wish you all the best in the year 2004. PARTY HARDY but be careful!
( Will Tippin: )
I've been watching this show called ALIAS on dvd and it's awesome. I couldn't leave my butt off the couch till I finished season one dvd. Gonna get season two soon. I've been dying to know what's going on. I know it's on every sunday night but I've missed so much. I probably wouldn't have a clue what's going on right now. Yes, I know Alias came out long time ago and I'm late in watching it.
Oh did I tell you I'll be dreaming of these two tonight *wink* hehe.
( Collin Farrell: )( Keanu Reeves: )
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16 glasses : Got Milk?
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Saturday, November 1st, 2003
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| Time: | 3:41 pm. |
| Mood: |  depressed. |
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I don't know if it's just me or what but some people just makes me depressed.
I know I'm a day late so OPPSIE!
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2 glasses : Got Milk?
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Tuesday, October 14th, 2003
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I want to have kids of my own but you know what I'm afraid of? Not able to have kids. I'm so scared that I don't even want to try to have kids in the future. I don't mind adopting but it's not the same because I wouldn't know what my kids will look like.
Being the youngest and the only girl in my family isn't so great. I've always wanted to have sisters. Who I can share late night talks, go shopping with, etc...
I have my girls but not all the time they're there because they have their own lives and their own sisters. I was also thinking when we come to that point in our lives when we get married. Of course their sisters will be their maid of honour. I know for sure I will never get to be a maid of honour, just a bridesmaid. Don't get me wrong, being a bridemaid's good too.
It sux that I didn't get to win the 30million dollars lotto super 7. :( Oh well, next time!
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13 glasses : Got Milk?
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Saturday, September 20th, 2003
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My parents are away for the weekend because they're visiting my brother and everyone would think it's great? The whole house to myself BUT I hate to admit it. I miss them and my dog. :(
I woke up this morning and went to my parents room but they weren't there. It's the usual thing I do when I wake up in the morning or before I go to sleep...is greet/say good night my parents and my dog. Yes my dog and he stays in my parents room. He follows my mom everywhere she goes. Cute? I know! It is but me jealous. Hehe j/ks! It's either my mom or me (only when my mom's not there. Hehe.)
Awww, I miss them. I'm so lonely here.
Tonight, a friend of mine and I put together something for the birthday celebrants of September. There's about five of them all in one week. Broke? Very much so! We rented out one of the clubs downtown and two of our friends are djing it. It's a small club but it'll do. So I hope it'll turn out good.
To the one of the birthday celebrants here in LJ: if you're reading this...Relax and have fun. It's your night! HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY!!
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5 glasses : Got Milk?
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Monday, September 8th, 2003
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| Time: | 6:41 pm. |
| Mood: |  bored. |
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bored again with my hair so I went to get my hair dyed.
Before
After
  
man I got too much time on my hands...gotta get a part time job. hehe
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15 glasses : Got Milk?
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indescribable.